July 4, 2008

Weeds vs. Wonder

Neatness is not a natural virtue for me. I struggle to stay on top of all the necessary maintenance of daily living. I remember once when I was younger, and I finally got my house all cleaned up, and just the way I wanted it. I was SHOCKED that within a day or two, the chaos was back.

I have similar feelings in regard to the garden these days - as the weeds make their comeback. I have a tendency to just throw my hands up, and give up on the whole project.

I very much buy into the philosophy that if I focus on "the problem" the problem gets bigger and if I focus on "the solution" the solution gets bigger. In gardening terms - if there are any weeds, my perfectionistic nature sometimes makes it difficult for me to enjoy the flowers. I think it's like many other things in life: do I want to count my blessings, or focus on what's wrong. Every day I have a choice: I can focus on what's right or focus on what's wrong.

Today I went out and watered, and pulled a few weeds. There's still plenty of work to do; but how grateful I am for that time spent in the garden - and the blessing of being able to enjoy the beauty. It was good to sweat, to feel the heat of the sun.

May you be aware of the Father's handiwork today.

Peace. Maryyx


HiHoRosie said...

Good for you! And I hear ya with the weeding. It's never ending and just when you think you've got them all pulled they reappear out of nowhere! Why is that? But I don't mind weeding so much b/c I can seen an instant difference and plus it gets me out into the garden, hands in the dirt and doing something good for ME and my family. Unfortunately, the weeds will always be our challenge but the reward (fruit and veggies) will be tasty!

Enjoy the weekend!

MARYYX said...

Hey Heidi

You are right - it IS good to be in the garden, no matter what the reason. Intrinsically, I feel that - and yet there is a part of me that resists when I feel inadequate to the task.

I'm really working right now at not judging my reactions to things, but trying to observe them in an objective way. Bill Harris of Holosync says that when we really see/understand that we are doing something destructive to ourselves, it is impossible for us to continue. That fits this "head in the sand" tactic that I tend to, like an ostrich. For me to avoid gardening, housework, or whatever because I feel overwhelmed is not beneficial - because I miss out on the fresh air, the pleasure of seeing the improvements in my environment, etc.

You have a good one too. Hope you are getting the responses I post to your comments.